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Monday, October 12, 2009
" When I start to look within myself ,
I find pieces of my heart missing . "
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(This gonna be so E.M.O)
I've been living , without much plan , not me solo but many of us act that way .
Life goes on , before you could even realise it .
Everything passed by way too fast .
Sometimes i thought to myself , " Did it really happen ? "
Pain , fear and uncertainties rebounced back to me , I have no room for others anymore .
I knew right from the start that I am nolonger me ,
Why would i bother so much about those demands and reasons .
It's still the same old me , nobody would understand it my way .
Not you , not her , not anyone .
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Sometimes it occur to me that I'm slowly , bit by bit losing faith in myself .
And everyone else around me .
Memories broke into thousand debris of sharp glass .
Slice the wound again and again .
Show no mercy to your pleasing and yelling .
Stubborn , yet full of emotions .
When the dark arrive , I knew it's another day i manage to live through .
At least , not so much pain .
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Why am i acting this way , those bubbles inside me .
Just few mins of happiness i yearn for .
On top of that , i know i have to bear a much bigger proportion of sadness .
Yet i thought , at least , i would have deserve some joy .
Not so much of them , however .
When , will all this end .