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Wednesday, January 5, 2011
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I'm sitting on my chair , thinking of how to start this post .
Thinking of what to type . Do I get to say whatever I feel inside ?
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I know you will see this , but maybe not .
You always say that I value friends more than relationship .
I always want to tell you friends stay forever , but relationship doesn't .
I have no faith in that 'forever' you picture me and you in .
I really want to believe that , and be part of it .
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There's a selfish me , a bitch inside me , wanting to rebel and show you how I really is .
I'm not the easy content girl , I'm not the perfect girl .
I do occasionally smoke , I know it's not cool , but i do .
I drink , then only stops when I'm drunk .
I'm selfish .
I don't know how to cherish you .
I love you . And I meant it .
It's the best relationship I ever had .
I know I'll remember it forever .
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However it's so different . The future , our future .
The kind of life I want .
I never mention but it's different .
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I know I've hurt you , deeply .
I apologize for that .
I hope you don't talk about death that easily . cherish life .
You'll meet a girl one day that share that same dream with you .
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Can we be friends ?
Fine ...... I'm selfish .